What do you do when you’ve lived in your house for years and years and it no longer meets your needs? It seems to me that you have 3 choices.
1. Stay put, change nothing, and be uncomfortable, maybe even unhappy.
2. Leave your old house to find a new, better house that allows you to spread out and live the way you dream.
3. Remodel the home you have, keeping what you love and change the parts that don’t work for you anymore.
What do you do when your life no longer meets your needs?
1. Stay put, change nothing, and be uncomfortable, maybe even unhappy.
2. Leave your old life to find a new, better one that allows you to spread your wings and live the life you dream.
3. Remodel the life you have, keeping what you love and changing the parts that don’t work for you anymore.
This is where I find myself – or maybe found myself – in the past few years. I knew the life I created wasn’t working for me, or anyone else for that matter. I was stressed, unhappy, unfulfilled, and grasping at anything that might make me feel better.
So I had to make a choice – door #1, 2, or 3? I knew something needed to change, so choice #1 was off the table. That left me with #2 and #3. But that can be a hard decision. So I started down the path of change not knowing what the outcome would be.
I left my job.
Went back to school full-time.
Repaired the personal relationships in my life.
Repaired myself.
Going down this road was exciting, challenging, energizing, and frustrating. The biggest frustrations came each time I faced that choice – leave or remodel. One thing was certain, I wasn’t leaving my husband or children, because the more I learned to love myself, the more I loved them.
The choice, however, became more and more clear as events unfolded. I’m staying. There is too much of my life – here and now – that I love. There are, though, parts that don’t work for me anymore. And that’s where I get stuck sometimes.
How does a 43 year old woman remodel her life?
New job? Check
New hobbies? Check
New outlook? Check
Heck, I even switched the furniture in the family and dining rooms to completely flip our house around.
But there’s a chunk of life that I still haven’t quite figured out. Before I go any further, let me say I love my friends. They are wonderful. But I’ve never been very good at getting close to people. I’m good at knowing a lot of people and being friendly, but not at being friends.
So I find myself at a point in my life where I’m ready to belong to a community of smart, spiritual, amazing women. Women who want to be their best in order to do their best work in the world, whatever that may be.
But where do you find them? We’re all so wrapped up in our work, families, church, you name it, we hardly ever have time to focus on ourselves. And if we do, shouldn’t we really be focusing on something or someone else? I’m ready to say no. I need time to work on and sustain myself, and hopefully help sustain others.
So I’m embarking on a journey to create such a community. I’ve taken a few steps to get started and I’ll be sharing them with you along the way. I think this could turn into something pretty exciting. I’d also love to hear what you think.
Are you anywhere in this process?
Do you belong to such a community of supporting women?
Aside from your family, where do you find the support and energy that sustains you?
~mwe